Growing Up in AA
Hello women of GROW and thank you for the opportunity to chair!
I am getting ready to celebrate 5 years sober…I’m also 51 years old and finally starting to feel like a grown up woman.
Today, my HP and I have a partnership. As a result I have been able to do things I never thought I could handle.
As a result of working these Steps, I no longer manipulate my partner into doing things I just don’t want to do; if I notice something that needs taking care of, I take care of it.
I no longer try to get something for nothing. If my computer is infected by malware, I pay someone to remove it. I no longer try to find a friend to do it for free.
I face my fear of financial insecurity. I am finally getting new glasses and I chose to go to the clinic that felt supportive, as opposed to one that was inexpensive.
Today I am learning to maintain good boundaries with partners and friends. I’m take care of my body. I am self-supporting through my own contributions! And it feels great.
I’d love to hear how AA has helped you to grow and take responsibility for your lives. What can you do now, with the support of your Higher Power that you thought you were unable or unwilling to handle?
Have a lovely week and I’m looking forward to hearing from you on this topic or whatever is on your heart.
We have learned that the satisfaction of instincts cannot be the sole end and aim of our lives. If we place instincts first, we have got the cart before the horse; we shall be pulled backward into disillusionment. But when we are willing to place spiritual growth first–then and only then do we have a real chance. – Twelve Steps & Twelve Traditions, p. 114
I’m Julie and still a grateful alcoholic. This reading above reminds me that I have grown and changed. I am not the person that I used to be. Today, I have learned to put my faith in the God of my understanding first. When I remember to pause and trust God, anything is possible. The key here is to pause… Sometimes I fall short and then I have to use the 10th step. But, it doesn’t happen as often as it used to and that is growth.
Today my goal is to continue to grow. I don’t fear failure or success like I used to. I’m grateful when things are comfortable but I’m aware that life gives me opportunities for growth. Some I may like more than others. But I don’t fear life as something I must endure. I am no longer existing but living. I have had experience of facing challenges head on in sobriety, and I have seen that my faith in my God gets me through, always.
So I am growing and I am grateful. I will keep coming back. I hope you do, too.
Please share on this topic or anything that’s on your mind. Thank you for allowing me to be of service.
Happy Memorial Day!