Topic for the week:
“A clear light seems to fall upon us all — when we open our eyes. Since our blindness is caused by our own defects, we must first deeply realize what they are. Constructive meditation is the first requirement for each new step in our spiritual growth.” – From “As Bill Sees It” – an excerpt from a letter Bill wrote in 1946
I love this passage from Bill. I have made list after list of my own character defects that my disease and my use of drugs and alcohol kept “hidden”. Recovery has given me the gift of that bright light that allows me to see where I am strong and where I need to improve. My meditation practice is exactly that – practice. It needs to be stronger, so I work on it. I do my best every day to stay strong and work on what I know (deep in my mind. heart, and soul) that I can improve upon. Am I too hard on myself? Of course, I am. Am I willing to change that and give myself the grace I so freely give others? Some days I am; some days I categorically am not. The beauty of recovery is the cognizance of that difference.