“We pocket our pride and go to it, illuminating every twist of character, every dark cranny of the past. Once we have taken this step, withholding nothing, we are delighted. We can look the world in the eye. We can be alone at perfect peace and ease. Our fears fall from us. We begin to feel the nearness of our Creator. We may have had certain spiritual beliefs, but now we begin to have a spiritual experience. The feeling that the drink problem has disappeared will often come strongly. We feel we are on the Broad Highway, walking hand in hand with the Spirit of the Universe.”
Alcoholics Anonymous 4th edition page 75
I was out walking with a friend tonight, talking about my mother. She offered me some suggestions on how to be in a different relationship with her. I felt myself tense up a bit. I know my goal is to be at perfect peace and ease. There are still some resentments under the surface that keep reappearing. I don’t stress about it. I give myself some grace and go about my day. I trust Gods plan for my life. When I’m ready to change, I’ll be willing to take different actions.
I almost forgot to send the lead out. I was scrolling my big book app to get an idea for this weeks lead…. And here it is. The direction to work my fourth step. The answers always present themselves to me in the book. The solution to any problem is here.
I set aside my pride and ego. I look at my mom has another human being on this planet. She’s not a bad mom. She is who she is. It’s my expectations that hurt our relationship. If I bring God into this relationship, I know things will be different. I have to do the work. I have to quiet my mind and ask God for help. I almost become giddy knowing what’s going to come out of this work… perfect peace.
I can walk hand and hand with the spirit of the universe in full gratitude for my sobriety; this program of action and good orderly direction.
Please feel free to share on this topic or anything on your mind. Thanks for allowing me to be of service.