I went it to a meeting on Friday that is a Big Book Study and we read from “Dr. Bob’s Nightmare.”
“Of far more importance was the fact that he was the first living human with whom I had ever talked, who knew what he was talking about in regard to alcoholism from actual experience. In other words, he talked my language.”
The preceding pages talked about the horrible place of drinking uncontrollably and not being able to stop. I flashed back to my first meeting and remembered the woman who told me her story after the meeting ended.
No preaching and no instructions, she just told me what her drinking was like and what she had done about it as a member of AA. I thought she was an angel. I too had never heard that kind of honesty about an alcoholic’s drinking.
So I would like to suggest the first word in step 1 “We” as a topic and hear how people related to other alcoholics. I will share that my most shameful ‘secret’ was that if I didn’t have to go to work, I started drinking when I got up, passed out about noon and started back up when I woke up. I was so sick and so dead inside and wishing for the end outside too. It was only in the rooms of AA that I could talk out loud about where alcoholism had taken me and listen to others share their bottoms. Remembering the ‘We” in AA has helped me so many times over the years to know I am not alone.