Outlook on Life Will Change
On pg. 84 of the Big Book, the ninth step promises states that,
“Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.”
I had a situation happen this weekend that would have normally put me in a tail spin. Drunk or sober, I tend to fly off the handle emotionally when I go through a break up. I have always had separation anxiety and repeated unhealthy cycles to keep myself from being alone. This time was different. Way different.
I felt God’s presence very strongly. I felt at peace with my decision to end a toxic relationship. I stood up for myself and was able to feel serenity in the fact that I was indeed following God’s will. I felt like something in me had shifted. Like God was truly doing for me what I had never been able to do for myself.
I’ve never been able to end a relationship and be ok with it. I’ve always dreaded the loneliness that followed and so on. This time my outlook on life has changed completely. I see my life today in a positive way. I went through this situation and knew how to handle it. What a miracle!! The glass is half full today instead of half empty.
I have been basking in this new outlook all day. I have had many God moments recently but this one takes the cake. I am truly sitting in an answered prayer right now. I have asked God to change me over and over in the last few months. I have been working with a therapist and my sponsor on a new way of thinking. And suddenly, this weekend, I can see how God has done for me what I could never do for myself before.
He has given me a new outlook on life. A healthy, positive outlook that only focuses on today and his presence with me right now. What a great feeling it is to not sit in misery today, resenting my new single relationship status. What a relief to not be repeating the same tail spin cycle again. The sunlight of the Spirit is shining bright in my life today. This truly is a miracle for me.
Please share your experience with this part of the ninth step promises. I would love to hear how your outlook has changed through this program and share in your sunlight story too.
This meeting is now yours. Thanks for being here.