The other day I was reading from one of the daily readers I use and the topic was about the way AA is sobriety, service and faith. Within the reading to stress how you cannot have one without the other and present the question Am I on the AA way of life?
First, I agree that because I am sober, I am able to help others, I am of service to AA and my faith in HP has evolved. This reading provided me with an opportunity to reflect on each component and see how each has changed since I first came through the doors of AA. When I came out of treatment and started to attend AA meetings, to this day I can see myself walk up this set of steps and cautiously sit in the back of the room and pray no one would talk to me. But a tall gentleman said hello, I am David. I said my name and he said let me introduce you to Kathy, she takes care of you. I did not realize how this group of individuals held me until I could stand on my own feet. They had me, they cared and looked out for me as I do for others today.
Service came slow for me. I never thought I had anything to give, and/or I did not feel I could do the task the correct way. That was then, today I know how important taking different service positions is to keep the doors of AA open for others.
As for my faith, prior to AA and even when I came to AA, my relationship with my HP was about HP. If you can do this or let this happen then I can do this. Or I was yelling at my HP for the crappy life that he gave me and was demanding answers to the whys I had. With time in recovery, my relationship with my HP is about asking for guidance, for his wisdom, to help me be the person he has always intended me to be. I walk with my HP and he still understands if I stray to old ways but they do not last as long as they used to.
Thank you for listening to and coming to this week’s meeting. Please share about what your service, faith and sobriety looks like today? Or share what is on your heart.