Below is the reflection for today, focuses on our journey and connection to our higher power, and they understanding that our higher power took us out of the bisque of despair and brought us into a life of recovery.
Please take a moment if you haven’t read the daily reading for today as I read this, I thought about the relationship I had when I first came and what it’s like today.
I’m sure before when I first came to program I feel that my higher power I choose a call God had it out for me. I feel that he enjoyed seeing me struggle and purposely put various obstacles into my life and that somehow he had this sadistical pleasure of just watching me live in darkness in despair that I wasn’t worth it so I got tossed into this week, dark journey of life
The line is still out to me today and touched me was where it said The power I had to grasp with was the power that would anchor me through my worst of woes.
I like the image of the anchor, and that God does an anchor make my connection to God anchor, and that connection is done in various ways, listening at meetings, doing service work, just being a good person in general inside the walls of AA and outside the walls of AA talking and listening to my higher power on a daily basis, which I can’t say I’m always doing this perfectly. I always have to be reminded to take that time to connect with him in various ways. I often do when I walk with my pups in the morning and in the evening.
I confidently can see that today my God never had it out for me. Yes, I was in despair , in darkness from the abuse that I suffered as a child and addiction of alcoholism but what I didn’t understand is he was not causing it. he was there to wrap his arms around me and keep me safe until I can reach the doors AA. Recovery/healing through therapy. What a priceless gift to receive.
My higher power is my anchor not just in the worst times not just in the best of times it’s all the time in between.
What part of the daily reading touch you? What thoughts came up for you after you read this daily reading and how does it relate to you when you first came into recovery? How does it relate to you today? If none of this hit a cord what is on your heart that you would like to share?