May 1: Step Five

Topic for the week: Step 5

 

We are all invited to share on Step 5.

 

This Step is described on pages 72 – 75. The directions for taking Steps 5 are on page 75:1, the first sentence of 75:2, and 75:3. The results of taking Step 5 are on page 75:2 after the first sentence.

 

*** Step 5 ***

 

Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.”

 

I was raised a catholic. My parents, did the needful for me to graduate in this, so I was like everyone else…. But it was a graduation of attendance and not study. For example my first confession, it was by rote. Perhaps all confessions afterwards. I am not a sinner, but I don’t know if I ever admitted my wrongs.

 

Go to mass, stand up, sit down, kneel at the right bits… Go less and less…. Forget to go…..

 

I became accountable to know one and found a better God….. BOOZE 🙂

 

Booze never expected me to pray and I was always right.  My pedestal was high and mighty.

 

Fast forward to the sleepless nights when I wrote my step 4. For the first time in my life, I wanted to scream my sins. Firstly I registered that they were bad,,, Some my bad, some others… Then I wanted to admit…. Just to talk about it for the first time ever…. I realised…. The days of bullshite were over…. 

 

The relief was immediate…… I was like a teenager again. The heaviness of the adult life left me… My first true confession. And like all good confessions (And hers something they don’t teach too often), but once your done it big… You will want and need to do it again and again 🙂

 

So ladies…. Do you remember your first confession? Looking forward to hearing from you xxxx

 

Carmel